So here's a thought I've been really focusing on the last week. I saw this mantra in S.hape Magazine and it really stuck with me:
"I want what I have."
And although I do believe that I am pretty good at this -- feeling blessed by what I have, happy with my life, finding joy in so many small things, laughing a lot -- right now while I'm trying to patiently wait for a few things I desperately want, I feel like this focus will at least try and keep me grounded.
Waiting is hard, it really is. And the lack of control coupled with this waiting is just as hard. I'm talking body and adoption. It will happen, I know it will. But there is not much more I can do on either front to make it happen faster or better.
So for now, I want what I have:
* An amazing husband
* A fabulous family
* The best friends
* My munchkins -- that will be a post of it's own, they've all melted my heart quite a lot lately
* Gummy Bears
* Glee back on TV tonight, yippee!
Hope you are all still out there, I'm working on a regular return soon.