Lyrics

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As I'm sure is true for many people, I'm often drawn to a song because of its lyrics. Something in a song speaks to me or is something I can relate too and depending on what it is, I want to listen to the song over and over again. 

One such song is "Ever the Same" by Rob Thomas, solo artist and lead singer of Matchbox 20. I heard this song about two years ago, just after my dad passed away and towards the beginning of this crazy health journey I've been on. The words touched right to my heart, and I cried every time I heard it. It was like it was written for me and the hubby. 

You'll notice over to the right, that I have a cute new music player here on the blog. Ever the Same is the second song on the playlist. When I heard it, I was sure that Thomas was singing about something totally different in his life, but was so amazed at how it captured exactly the feelings we were having. I've been listening to that song a couple of times a week, sometimes over and over, since then. It gives me a release of emotion and says exactly what the hubby and I sometimes have trouble expressing in words.

Fast forward to last week, the hubs and I were watching some quality television, E! Entertainment News:) Thomas was being interviewed about his new album and subsequently his new single "Her Diamonds." And then it happened, he explained that he wrote this song about his wife's struggle with auto immune disease and how they are affected by it. We were both stunned, did he really just say what we thought he said?

We jumped on the computer immediately and did some research and sure enough, it's true his wife has been struggling with an auto-immune disease that mirrors the symptoms of lupus, throughout their entire relationship. He has written a number of songs about her struggle and his struggle trying to be there for her...one of the most poignant songs, written on a particularly hard night was "Ever the Same."

It made so much sense why I was so drawn to that song. It was not just my interpretation of the words but the lyrics were actually exactly our situation. We both teared up, then we listened to the new song, "Her Diamonds" and proceeded to cry. 

I encourage all of you to listen to these two songs, they are the first two on my new playlist and they almost perfectly express what the hubs feels watching me struggle and some of the words are verbatim what I say. "She says oooh, I can't take no more..." I can't tell you how many times I've said this in desperation. or "You're no burden, I assure" -- heart breaking, how does he know...

It was eery but also so cathartic at the same time to hear the true meaning behind these songs. We are not alone and other couples are struggling with these same questions and bumps. It's not only the patient suffering but also the person closest to her, who can't do anything to fix it. A truly helpless position. It also expresses, what very few other people see because I don't allow myself to be so vulnerable or sad in public, but how I can really feel all of my feelings in the comfort of my man's arms. 

Music has always been a powerful thing for me. When I was able to dance, it was a means in which I could let my body express emotion. Now, the words can touch my soul and put into words all that's in my head. Knowing what we know about these songs, only reinforces my connection to music and I'm so thankful for it. I'm also thankful for Thomas' honesty in sharing his struggle through beautiful song. 

Here are the lyrics to both songs. I hope when you listen or read, you will be touched as well and given a better insight into this struggle or at the very least connect in your own way to the words. Enjoy!

"Ever the Same"

We were drawn from the weeds

We were brave like soldiers

Falling down under the pale moonlight

You were holding to me

Like a someone broken

And I couldn't tell you but I'm telling you now

Just let me hold you while you're falling apart

Just let me hold you so we both fall down

Fall on me

Tell me everything you want me to be

Forever with you forever in me

Ever the Same

We would stand in the wind

We were free like water

Flowing down under the warmth of the sun

Now it's cold and we're scared

And we've both been shaken

Look at us man, this doesn't need to be the end

Just let me hold you while you're falling apart

Just let me hold you so we both fall down

Fall on me tell me everything you want me to be

Forever with you

Forever in me

Ever the Same

Call on me

I'll be there for you and you'll be there for me

Forever it's you

Forever in me

Ever the Same

You may need me there

To carry all your weight

But you're no burden I assure

You tide me over

With a warmth I'll not forget

But I can only give you love

"Her Diamonds"

Oh what the hell she says I just can't win for losing 

And she lays back down

Man there's so many times I don't know what I'm doin'

Like I don't know now

By the light of the moon 

She rubs her eyes

Says it's funny how the night can make you blind

I can just imagine

And I don't know what I'm supposed to do

But if she feels bad, then I do too

So I let her be

And she says Oooh

I can't take no more

Her tears like diamonds on the floor

And her diamonds bring me down 

Cuz I can't help her now

She's down in it

She tried her best and now she can't win

It's hard to see them on the ground

Her diamonds falling down

She sits down and stared into the distance 

And it takes all night

And I know I could break her concentration

But it don't feel right

By the light of the moon she rubs her eyes

Sits down on the bed and starts to cry

And there's something less about her

And I don't know what I'm supposed to do

So I sit down and I cry too

And don't let her see

And she says oooh

I can't take no more

Her tears like diamonds on the floor

And her diamonds bring me down

Cuz I can't help her now

She's down in it 

She tried her best and now she can't win 

It's hard to see them on the ground

Her diamonds falling down

She shuts out the night

Tires to close her eyes

If she can find daylight

She'll be all right

She'll be all right

Just not tonight

And she says oooh

I can't take no more 

Her tears like diamonds on the floor 

And her diamonds bring me down

Cuz I can't help her now

She's down in it

She tried her best and now she can't win

It's hard to see them on the ground

Her diamonds falling down

** To my babe, thanks so much for standing by me, supporting me, loving me, even when I'm sure it's unbearable and it would be easier to run away. I know this hurts you too and I am in awe of how you take it all in stride and continue to love me no matter what. Thank you. I'm so lucky and blessed that you are always with me. I love you!**